I have never had that great of a memory, but I feel an increasing sense that it is getting worse. I can’t recall entire conversations I’ve had with people, personally or at work. I don’t fully doubt that they happened, but I am starting to wonder what’s going on. Have people noticed that I don’t necessarily remember things, and then try to con me into thinking I agreed to something that I didn’t intend? Perhaps, but most of these types of conversations, such as the one I had at work today, don’t present any real gain for the other person so I choose to believe I have just forgotten.
I will admit that I tend to multitask, which does reduce my attention to both functions. Sometimes I don’t pay close enough attention to a conversation that is not vitally important, so I end up forgetting parts (or all) of it. Some periods in my life I prefer to block out because they were painful, I wasn’t happy, or they just weren’t vivid enough to stick in my mind. That being said, why does my memory seem so much worse than the average person? Do I spend too much time thinking inside myself to the point where I am blocking out the outside world? That may be a possibility. I am used to spending a lot of time alone, thinking to myself. I have been known to think about conversations in my head, believing that I truly did have that conversation with the person, only to have them adamantly reply that I said nothing to them about a topic. That makes me think I’m starting to lose my mind.
I’m not stupid, though. If anyone asks me to remember the conversation we had about me lending them $1000, I’ll know better.