I don't usually type things to you, but I figured if I got it out in the open and visible, maybe it would help me.
Though I'm resistant to change, as you know, I think I've bashed my head against the proverbial brick wall long enough. I'm going to need your help to figure this out, and this time I really want to come to an answer instead of deferring the problem for 10+ years. I'll do the work if you can help me find some direction.
Please make this week easier than the last. It's so exhausting being the person who cares so much, compared to those who don't but should. I'm tired of being angry, bitter, depressed, and unhappy. I'd like that to change, I just don't know how to go about it. I could really use some light at the end of the tunnel, some hope that things are going to get better.
Hopefully you can show me the way.