Sunday, May 11, 2014

An open prayer

Hey God,

I don't usually type things to you, but I figured if I got it out in the open and visible, maybe it would help me.

Though I'm resistant to change, as you know, I think I've bashed my head against the proverbial brick wall long enough. I'm going to need your help to figure this out, and this time I really want to come to an answer instead of deferring the problem for 10+ years. I'll do the work if you can help me find some direction.

Please make this week easier than the last. It's so exhausting being the person who cares so much, compared to those who don't but should. I'm tired of being angry, bitter, depressed, and unhappy. I'd like that to change, I just don't know how to go about it. I could really use some light at the end of the tunnel, some hope that things are going to get better.

Hopefully you can show me the way.


Cyn said...

I hope an answer and direction/guidance come your way soon.

Liza said...

I have been talking with a psycho-therapist for the past year and have found it to be helpful in getting me to articulate issues and then deal with them. You may want to find a counselor with whom you can share your deepest/darkest without having to censor what you say or edit it to fit what someone else thinks you should think/say/do. As I keep reminding Jennifer at my sessions, she has to listen and she can't tell anyone what I say, and that is really liberating.