Sunday, April 12, 2009


I am trying to knit a gift for a work friend, and I have managed to screw it up 4 times:
  1. Didn't leave enough yarn to cast on all stitches
  2. Dropped a stitch after 1st round and couldn't recover
  3. Finally got the first section done, only to screw up after misreading the pattern, undid the 2.5 rows back down to the start of the second section
  4. Followed the pattern correctly this time, only to screw it up again
At that point, I decided to put it down as I felt pretty incompetent.

After that, I managed to totally ignore the beets cooking on the stove to the point where it created a giant red mess everywhere and started to burn. My mother managed to save the pot for me, thankfully.

I realize that I suffer from perfectionism, but I just feel totally incompetent today. It's stressful cooking a meal for my mother and not having everything turn out the way I want it to. Yes, she's done it a zillion times and has likely made her share of mistakes, but that's not the point. I should be capable of remembering that something boiling for over an hour may need to have more water added. This led to me being tired & grumpy during Easter dinner.

What I am ultimately tired & grumpy about, other than a couple of failed attempts today, is that my long weekend has come to a close. I could really use another day (or week, or two, or three) off from work, but I just can't do that right now. I feel like a slave to my job. I'm on tap to go to Halifax for 2 weeks to observe training. I hate Halifax, so that's also making me very cranky. I do not want to go, but I don't have a choice; I was volun-told.

The hardest part is knowing that the worst is yet to come with this work project. Trying to get everyone on board may lead to me going to the nuthouse. I will be so glad when this is over.

1 comment:

Liza said...

For some of us, the good news is that the beets were a total loss!

Remind me the next time our paths cross to show you how to use a crochet hook to pick up dropped stitches. It's not just do-able, but usually the fix cannot be seen when it's done correctly.

If we lived in proximity, it would be fun to share some of the skills that are only learned from trial and error. Of course, you'd have to deal with the living in proximity part ... .