I think the older I get, the more scary the world is becoming. I look around me and think about what I see, and I'm not sure I like what's going on out there. I feel weighed down by the mistakes of humanity, which is one reason why I don't pay a lot of attention to the news. Sometimes it gets mentally overwhelming.
Some days I feel like the invention of plastic was a huge mistake that is choking the planet. Plastic washing up on beaches, plastic thrown away in landfills (more than what we're recycling), our reliance on plastic everywhere in our homes. Humanity survived for thousands of years without plastic, but now we can't? It seems sad. I have always been angry at those who litter instead of just hanging onto a piece of garbage for a few more minutes until they reach a garbage can, but lately I am also reminded that garbage cans go to landfills. At the rate we're going, the whole planet is becoming a landfill. Many people simply do not care about it, either. What are we going to do in the future if we plan on surviving as a race? There have been movies which used this idea as a storyline (think Wall-E), and I don't think they're all that far off from the truth. It scares the crap out of me. Who has a plan to fix this? Nobody. One of many reasons why I don't think I want to bring a child into this world.
Blatant consumerism doesn't help. I'll be the first to admit that I am a slave to that philosophy. What I have done recently is try not to increase my "buy useless crap" quotient. I've been trying to employ my friend's rules for puurchases: 1) Do I need it? 2) Where will I put it/what will I get rid of to make room? 3) Can I afford it? (not necessarily in that order). Other times, I fail miserably because I want shiny new X. I figure at least trying to improve my thought processes is better than never considering it, but maybe I'm wrong.
The spelling/grammar problem is getting increasingly worse to the point where I'm genuinely scared for how dumb North Americans will look in the near future. I was in a store yesterday where they were selling "mini-scrappers". These were not small items that liked to fight, but were actually scrapers. Another post on Facebook today from a friend who said "your not so bad." This is a guy in the middle of university, a generally smart kid who should know better. Those of us who do know better just end up getting flamed for making corrections. I guess the dumb will prevail, but that's not the kind of world I want to live in. Auto-correct is the work of Satan. Smart guy, Satan. He knew we'd just get lazy and ignore spelling and grammar rules, blindly accepting whatever the computer suggests to us as correct. I wonder if kids are being taught that it is not absolute, but that you must also use common sense and the rules you were taught in school to apply as well? I doubt it. Sad.
[Is this post grammatically correct? No, I know it's not. Mistakes happen, but at least I know the difference between your and you're, and scrapper/scraper. I have that knowledge and intelligence vs those who don't and should.]
Mobile phones scare me. That market has exploded to the point where they've become like a drug addiction. Work in IT and you may have a different opinion. Some days my phone is indispensable, other days I want to go somewhere with no cell service whatsoever and throw it into a river, because I'd probably be out enjoying nature instead. Do I check my phone when others are around? Yes, and I am sometimes ashamed of that. If I attend an event, though, I make a concerted effort to not have my phone in front of me at all times. I want to be in the moment, enjoying the company of humans. Whatever is happening on FB or Twitter can be read later.
People in SJ need serious driving help. I'm starting to think everyone should be re-tested every 5-10 years. Included should be a module on freeway driving. Most SJers have never driven a freeway. If they had, they'd be better drivers. I wouldn't have to anticipate braking in the left lane, people cutting me off, abnormal speed up & down, etc.
Mitt Romney and the Republican party scare me. Democrats scare me too, but nowhere near as much as the Romney/Ryan ticket. The guy actually said he didn't know why airplane windows don't open, and yet I have friends who practically insist that Obama is the devil. The USA needs serious help and bi-partisanship, but they just keep getting worse and worse. This is important to me because I assume I'll end up living there in the future. I'm just not sure I'll want to if it keeps going down the crapper. They desperately need a revolution.
At the rate North America is going, we soon won't have anyone who wants to be a teacher anymore. Teachers continually get low pay and disrespect. Parents who expect school to raise their child. Kids who don't see any value in an education. Pretty soon the drive to pass on knowledge and make a difference will be outweighed by the fact that you can't afford to live on that salary, and the mental drain of trying to keep the ship upright will be too much. I have no idea how teachers do it without ending up in a mental institution. It makes me want to cry.
These are some of the things on my mind lately. They scare me, and often make me want to curl up into a ball and not deal with the outside world. That statement is closer to the literal truth than you probably imagine. I'm trying to fight through it, but it's difficult. I haven't yet mastered the art of living my own life and doing the best I can. Sometimes I see where all of this is going and wonder why I'm here?